I'm longing for blue
Waves and tides and beach campfires
The October cape.
Just starting out. Somewhere near the "stumps" I believe. |
Even a cloudy, blustery day on the cape is a beautiful day. |
Shells adorning driftwood |
Explorers decorate palm trees with shells along the way |
One of several shots from that afternoon. The weather was very unsettled due to Hurricane Zeta!
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He's pretty cute. I think he said something Forest Gump-ish when I shot this.. "This is mah boaat!" |
At the site of the Donna Kay, looking east. So beautiful there! |
Just us, after our hike <3 |
My maternal grandmother, Ruth Francis Lewis Kirby was born on December 14, 1901 in Paris, Kentucky. For as long as I can remember, she left a fragrant trail of Tuvache's Jungle Gardenia perfume wherever she went. Her beautiful white-gray hair was piled on top of her head in a sweet and grandmotherly way. Her fingernails and toes were neatly painted and manicured in her signature fire engine red polish. Her blue eyes shone through her glasses like aquamarine gemstones. She was a lively and feisty girl with a great sense of humor and a quick wit! I loved her dearly.
She lived with her parents until her father's death in 1911 - which meant, at the approximate age of ten, she and most of her siblings were shuffled off to an orphanage. I understand these things happened in families where there was not sufficient income to care properly for children. I get that. I know very little about my great grandmother and I wouldn't want to judge her unfairly. But the fact remains - she gave my grandmother and her siblings away to strangers - and that breaks my heart.
As far as I know, Ruth was never adopted or fostered and left the orphanage when she became of age. She married my grandfather - Harris Breck Kirby, III. He was a railroad man-tall and handsome with blue eyes like her own. The one story I remember about Gram and Grampy as a couple, was when they made a long trip to the home they would both share after they were married. At the end of the day she was tired, and lay down on a sofa to rest. She awoke to a goat licking her face... I remember her telling this story laughing. I'm fairly certain farm life was relatively new to her. But being the girl she was, she made the best of every situation with what she had...and with a smile on her face.
Gram & Grampy's 2nd wedding day-nearly 30 years after their first! Oh, that's my sweet brother trying to stay out of the shot <3 |
My sweet Grampy reading to me. I'm pretty sure I thought I was a Winnie the Pooh character... |
But while she was apart from her Harris, she lived in Chicago. One day, while riding the bus to work in the downtown area in the 1940's, the bus driver called out "Clark" as in Clark Street. Above the conversation in the crowded bus, my grandmother shouted out "If it's Gable, I'll take him!" I'm sure those morning bus riders had a good laugh. I know I did, and I wasn't even there! Ruth had such a great sense of humor, fun and adventure!
Here is Ruth with my mom and her brothers, Harris Jr. and Frank.
There were four children all together. Elvira (not in this photo) passed away as a child.My two grandmothers! They really liked each other and included Ruth at family events
Ruth wasn't a girl with whom one would trifle... She was kind and funny, but we pitied anyone who crossed her. A fast forward to a few years later, she was watching my two older brothers- who were then, just little people. Gram asked them to do something- get ready for bed, finish their dinner, etc. Now... I don't know which one said it - I can only guess. But the reply was "I'll do it when I'm good and ready!" Gram walked in the room and gave them that look - "What did you say?" To which he replied... "I'm ready, I'm ready!" I laugh to myself when I replay that scene in my head as I have done for many years. It never gets old.
These are the sweet little monkeys who challenged my grandmother! |
I rarely saw my grandmother seated, without some manner of needle work in her hands. She was talented in so many ways. Ruth was also an accomplished seamstress. She worked sewing car upholstery for a time while living in Chicago. She certainly used her love of fiber arts to her full advantage! She made my mom's simple and elegant wedding gown!
Mom & Dad - Aren't they beautiful... |
Chicago - January 17, 1948 |
This is just one of Gram's sweet handmade items. I love this little apron... |
That's me! |
To date, I have learned many different fiber arts. Primarily, I spin, knit, weave, felt, dabble in natural dyeing, crochet and sew. I teach most of these skills to other like-minded souls who, almost always, become life long friends.
I also write, draw, paint in oils, acrylic and now watercolor. My right brain is apparently developed to a much greater degree than the left... Many years ago, a friend told me it was simply a natural progression for creatives to "try" everything. Some things just seem to stick with us longer. She was definitely right. However, I can with great certainty, say - everything I have learned and continue to practice, will be with me as long as I'm around. I can be a flaky artist or a focused program director. I just always hope the days are appropriately distributed.
The Roller Coaster Scarf!
Look at all those tiny little cables! Need to finish this little baby vest!
Essential beach vacation supplies! |
A warm pair of alpaca socks for my son |
Twill table runner |
"Orange Peel" overshot table runner My sister has two of them! :) |
Knitting on a hot day, in my booth at a local festival. |
My little writing nook is a beautiful and usually sunny spot. It sure feels good here! |
Thanks Gram
and
Thank you to anyone who ever helped me along the way to fulfil a goal or dream.
💗💗💗
I am a wife, mom, fiber artist, program director for an art center, teacher of fiber arts, writer, painter, starter of projects. I have actual moments of clarity. I aspire to do many things and even accomplish a few of them.
When I was twenty-something, I told my sister I
was going to move out of state, change my name, live on a hill and learn to
spin wool from my own flock. Well, I did
just that.
I didn’t set out to do any of these things
on purpose. When I originally made that
statement, I hadn’t considered marriage as
part of the scenario. I planned
to change my name in the metaphorical sense and not the way it happened.
I felt adrift. My mom passed away when she was 56 and I,
21. I was in the midst of several
job/career changes. I was unhappy dating
and frankly, didn’t want to be married.
I couldn’t stand the thought of telling my life story
one.more.time. I was restless and wanted
to run away and become someone else.
My home was in Chicago (and a suburb). Quite by happy accident, I met a man from
Tennessee and fell in love. I told my
life story one more time. We married, I
changed my name, moved – to a house on a hill – and bought my first two sheep
in 1992. I learned to spin a year before
that, and weaving came shortly thereafter.
It’s rather unnerving how this happened in retrospect. However, it wasn’t simply a passing
thought. I wanted these things to become
my reality. I spoke my life into
existence…
Vintage photo of my first sheep Anddie and me |
Sheep aren’t a part of my days anymore. They all lived happy content lives until, one by one, it was their time to leave. I work as a program director for a school of art and humanities. I teach fiber arts there as well. Our children are grown. We have time to focus on each other and the things we wish to bring into our lives. Life is full, but there’s room for more.
Today, “Berta’s Flax” brings me to the page. Berta’s Flax is a new Facebook group to which
I belong. Quite simply, a wonderful
Austrian woman named Christiane came into the possession of two large chests
filled with sticks of flax and linens.
They belonged to an Austrian woman named Berta who married in the
1940’s. She has passed
away and her son wanted his mother’s belongings to go to a good home. The chests and their contents were Berta’s
dowry. Christiane soon realized she
would not be able to spin all the flax in the gifted dowry chests and began to
give it to other spinners for only the cost of shipping. She is a kind and gentle soul I wish I knew
in person.
Christiane. |
Christiane with a bridal chest. |
The last time I checked, Berta’s Flax has grown to an amazing 745 members! I have not requested a strick from Christiane yet. I want to wait until I feel she has caught her breath. My experience spinning flax is minimal and poor at best. I do think, with the addition of this wonderful group, I may learn many useful tips…
I read stories daily about Berta’s Flax members
receiving their stricks and more stories of dowry chests lovingly handed over
to Christiane - and some not. I find myself thinking of
my Austrian grandmother Anne and great-grandmother Barbara - both with the last
name Rostan. My paternal grandmother
Anne was wonderful. She was warm, loving
and always armed with a hug. In regard
to fiber, I never saw her with any kind of
kind of needlework in her hands.
She was a busy girl – a wonderful cook, she kept a beautiful home and always
had time for family. Anne had arthritis
in her hands and that may very well have been the reason she didn’t do any kind
of fiber art when I was a child.
Truly little is known about my great-grandmother,
Barbara. She and my great grandfather,
Lawrence were married against her family’s wishes. Barbara came from a wealthy
family and Lawrence was a farmer - with what I can only guess, was an austere
lifestyle. Together, they had a large family
with twin boys being the last of their children.
There are several stories surrounding my great
grandmother. The most logical one I have
been told is Barbara passed away giving birth to the twin boys. This would have happened somewhere in the late
1800’s. After her death, Barbara’s family
came to the home to take the twin boys and “furniture” belonging to Barbara. Lawrence then traveled to the United States
and later sent for his children. Lawrence
remarried very quickly upon coming to the states to a woman named Mary who was
also from Austria. Together, they
had many children as well.
Until last week, I never considered what the
“furniture” might have been that was so important, Barbara’s family would come
to retrieve it after her death (along with two precious baby boys). I’m nearly convinced now; part of the
furniture must have been her bridal chest(s).
I wonder what they contained. Was
it flax and linens? It’s doubtful I will
ever know.
My grandmothers - Ruth and Anne on my parent's Wedding Day! |
Christiane's photo of an Austrian morning. I feel strong ties to this part of my heritage. <3 |
I was sitting at work looking out the window the other day. It was snowing with gusto. It's a rare commodity where I live and work. At one point, I found myself with my hand propping up my chin, staring wistfully at the snow. I'm 58 years old and I've never hated seeing the white stuff fall from the sky - and pile up on the ground. It turns me into an 8 year old.
I have lived in the midsouth for many years. Snow that sticks to the ground opens a whole new Pandora's box here. Most people here don't really drive all that well in the white stuff...and the hills and hollows can make a slippery road, one hundred times more dangerous. Most people just don't have much experience with it. However, the weather is routinely (mostly) predictable here regarding snow. It rarely gets that bad. The roads had been brined and all will be well.
But still, I'm looking out the window watching the giant flakes dance and fall soothingly from the sky - only to melt as soon as they touch the ground. In the distance, I hear a train whistle - another sound I love. It was definitely a zen moment. Somewhere inside me, I'm wishing for hot chocolate, a fire in the hearth, a cat beside me and my knitting in my lap. I'm either a little kid or an old woman (inside), waiting to play.
I hope you get a snow day soon, to simply enjoy.
Once upon a time, in a land far far away (Illinois), there was a girl (me), who lived with her dad (Dad). They were getting ready to have the family over for Christmas the next morning. It was late. They had just come home from midnight mass and had a few last minute things to accomplish.
Dad was vacuuming and I was downstairs working on something else. I heard Dad saying something upstairs but couldn't understand exactly what he was saying. I went up to see what was happening. When I got there, I saw his thing was more important that anything I could have been doing. The Christmas candle carousel was on fire! Dad was attempting to put the fire out with a towel. Within a few seconds, the fire was out and all was going to be well. But all the while, he was kind of laughing and said "Fire in the hole!" a couple times. When the fire was out, he was still laughing - we both were... It was a small fire and nothing was destroyed. All was well and we had a good laugh.
Several years later, Dad was thinning out his decorations and asked me if I wanted "our" scorched Christmas carousel. I immediately told him yes! It is now in my possession and one of my treasured holiday decorations. Dad has his own permanent reminder of that night. There is a burned ring on the wooden divider where the carousel was sitting. I like knowing that little ring is there...
Now, every season, I unpack the Christmas carousel and proudly display it. Most likely I have told the story behind it every year. When our kids were younger, they may have rolled their eyes a little each time it was recited. That's ok. I want them to have the memory of this little item that I so strongly associate with their grandfather and those few minutes in my life. I don't want them wondering why I have this thing they, or even other people might consider junk.
It's not that I have become the custodian of Dad's Christmas carousel ... It's so much more than that. It's those 5 crazy minutes their Grampy and I shared on that Christmas Eve somewhere around 1985. It represents his character as a father, protector, teacher and friend. He put the fire out and made it amusing at the same time. He didn't become angry, fearful or any other negative reaction. I was in my mid 20's and he was still teaching me - to not freak out and make the best of a bad (or what could have been bad) situation. But he didn't do it intentionally. That's just Dad. Even to this day, that's my Dad. I sure hope to be just like him when I grow up.
So, when the carousel comes out for all Christmases in the future, I hope they remember this story. I hope they remember the kind of man my dad is - and what kind of human they want to be in this world. I also hope they bicker just a little over who gets the carousel when I'm not here anymore.
You see, it's just not about the thing - it's about what the thing means to you.
I had a nostalgic thought several months ago. It literally brought tears to my eyes - I miss Christmas. I miss everything about it.
Simply thinking about Christmas, I am immediately transported to a time when people are happier, friendlier - more joyous. Strangers wish me Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Happy Kwanzaa or Hanukkah too. I miss the gentle lights that frame my mantle. Their warm glow brings me actual warmth and happiness. I miss the twinkling of colored lights that illuminate my windows, the snowflake light my dad gave me. I love every element of this season. The Christmas tree, the manger scenes, the advent calendars - I miss Christmas.
It's not the commercialization of the season that I miss, but the coming of a baby-everything I do has to do with Him. Even within the hustle and bustle of the season, every present I purchase, every candle I light, every time I sing Jingle Bells- it all goes back to the little babe, lying in a manger.
I’m the ebullient little toddler on my mom’s lap. I’m sure there isn’t a thing wrong in my world. We are all together (Dad is behind the camera), and it’s Christmas Eve. I was two years old in this photo, but it’s how I feel every Christmas season. At two years old, I don't think I had much of a grasp on what this time was really about. But I was a happy little girl here. I may not have her expression that was captured in this photo, but it’s inside me - just below the surface.
We are just a short time away from my favorite holiday. I go through my days with a happy, fluttery
feeling inside – it feels like anticipation – as if something wonderful is
about to happen. It could be all the caffeine or maybe adrenaline …but
probably not. Christmas is about to happen! The tree is about to go up! I'll be burning Paine’s Balsam Fir incense
in its little log cabin holder and decorate to my heart’s content, write out my
Christmas cards and say Merry Christmas to complete strangers. I think we need to make some wassail too! Man, I'm excited!
So, Merry Christmas my friends! Live in the moment, it’s what it’s for.
Greg |
Greg & Bobcat last Summer We lost Bobcat, Bobby, Bob, last week. I like to think this is what they're doing right now. :) |
I'm longing for blue Waves and tides and beach campfires The October cape.